Thursday, September 18, 2008

The Flirting Continues

Ok - I gained a pound this week.

I need to tell myself - it's not a big deal. Weight can fluctuate between 1-2 pounds a day - so I'm good.

Inside I am really going. "OMG - I'm gaining my weight back. Oh the humanity."

But this week we talked about Managing our thoughts. So I will go back to thinking that it's ok because weight fluctuates and I still haven't gone above the 280's.

After weigh in my friends and I went to our favorite sushi place, which can be dangerous because it is soo yum. but oh so dangerous. or as one girl at ww put it last night - "seems like a good idea". anyways- then we had the sushi and I went way over the daily points. And even though I did an hour of wii fit afterwards - it still didn't get rid of all those extra points i used. But I guess that is why we have the weekly allowance.

But I am managing my thoughts and today is a new day with no mistakes in it.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

I'm still trucking on

I knew it had been too long since my last post when my friend Susan said she never hears about how I am doing on Weight Watchers any more. That made me look back at this blog - and I realized that OMG - I haven't posted anything since June.

Here is an update. I have been flirting with the same 5 pounds for over two months now. In June I started taking anti-depressants and since then my body has been kinda messed up. The first round gave me constant headaches. The second round made me totally sleepless and lethargic. I am on my third different medication now and although it is not as bad as the second one - I don't really feel like the benefits of taking it outweigh the negative. Having a messed up bio rhythm has thrown me off of the Weight Watcher's wagon. I've gone back to some of my bad eating habits and not exercising like I should. I even started missing some of my WW meetings (for the first time in 6 months) Plus some anti-depressants do have side effects of gaining weight. I guess I should be very glad that I didn't gain it all back.

On top of the anti-depressants, I've been having (and men - turn away if you don't want to read this) regulary monthlys. 9months in a row. I can't even tell you the last time I had 3 of these in a row - not to mention 9. My doctor friends tell me this is a very good thing medically (and I know they totally right), but there are days when I miss the not feeling bloated and icky once a month. On my weight chart, I've been noticing that there is always one monthly weight gain spike - and it's discouraging. I just have to tell my mind that it's a good spike.

Anyways - so I've been feeling bad over the fact that I have been hovering around the 20-25 pound weight loss mark. I was really discouraged - so I stopped doing the things that I should - like keeping track of what I eat and making sure I get in 40 oz. of water. So at the beginning of September I told myself that I needed this to be fun again. So I splurged. I bought myself a Wii and a Wii Fit. There were so many reasons why I shouldn't have done it, but I needed to do something to make me want to get back on track. I've had the Wii for a week now - and I've played every night at least 30 minutes. It's really excellent excerise for the arms. Yesterday the Wii Fit finally arrived, so I played on that for another 30 minutes. It was a lot of fun. Anyways - I'm really psyched that I will be able to track my progress on it. Like the folks on the Biggest Loser - my physical age is way older than my chronological age - so I have a lot of work to do. (Speaking of the Biggest Loser - how gross was it to see how fat builds around your organs. Seriously. If I wasn't already try to lose weight - that would definitely inspire me)

So that is where things are. As of my last week weigh in I was 288.2 pounds. We'll see how I do tonight. Send me skinny vibes.

And I promise that I will post again soon.