I used to have a blog. Just me rambling on about whatever. It was on myspace and it was good. Then I got out of the habit because I started dating someone who was private and I didn't want to post anything he wouldn't feel comfortable with. And when he died, I thought I could go back, but I couldn't - because all of a sudden myspace had turned into a meat market and you couldn't turn left or right without some guy contributing a lame pick up line. And the truth is grieving really doesn't make one receptive to pick up lines.
Anyways - so I created this blog to write about losing weight - which was really great until I started gaining the weight back with depression.
And one of the things I realized is that I really miss having that one forum where I can write whatever I want. Whether it is about what I'm eating or exercising, or how I'm feeling, or even how scared I am that Chuck may not be on next season. So from now on - the Sassy Strutter is no holds bar.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
Red Velvet Update
I know that I promised to give y'all an update on the Red Velvet cupcakes - so here it is.
I tried out a red velvet recipie from Paula Deen - and I have to say that I was not impressed with the cake. It tasted too much like oil - although it wasn't oily.
The frosting on the other hand...was FANTASTIC. And relatively low fat (compared to normal cream cheese frosting). Now most cream cheese frosting recipies call for 16 oz. of Cream Cheese (2 8oz. packages). Just 1 8oz. package of regular cream cheese is 22.5 points. So 2 packages put you at 45 points. Add in the powder sugar, butter, and vanilla and you are at something close to 90 points (this is the whole frosting - not the frosting divided into servings. What I learned making my pumpkin cheesecake earlier this year is that while fat free cream cheese may be much better for you, it tastes bitter compared to regular cream cheese and doesn't necessarily have the same consistency in the end. So I used a combination of fat free cream cheese and neufchatel cheese. Neufchatel is a soft cheese that is very cream cheese like (you even find it in that section of the grocery store) but it is lower in fat than regular cream cheese and is creamier than fat free cream cheese. It's a happy medium. So here is my recipie.
Emily's totally AWESOME cream cheese frosting
1 8oz. package of fat free cream cheese (room temp)
1 8oz. package of Neufchatel cheese (room temp)
1/2 cup of butter (softened, but not melty)
2 cups powder sugar
1 tsp vanilla
Using and electric mixer, cream together the FF Cream Cheese, Neufchatel Cheese, and butter. Once mixed together, mix in powder sugar in about about 1/2 cups increments. Mix until frosting smooth but not bubbly. Add in vanilla and mix for another 30 seconds. If you want a different flavor of frosting - you can add in a different extract in substitute for vanilla. If you want chocolate frosting - you can add in 1/2 cup cocoa (I reccommend Hershey's special dark cocoa - it's totally sinful).
When I made this recipie, I was liberally able to frost 23 regular sized cupcakes and still had over a cup of frosting left. The total points for the icing is about 64 points, meaning that point for a serving (based on 24 cupcakes) is about 3.
Enjoy.
I tried out a red velvet recipie from Paula Deen - and I have to say that I was not impressed with the cake. It tasted too much like oil - although it wasn't oily.
The frosting on the other hand...was FANTASTIC. And relatively low fat (compared to normal cream cheese frosting). Now most cream cheese frosting recipies call for 16 oz. of Cream Cheese (2 8oz. packages). Just 1 8oz. package of regular cream cheese is 22.5 points. So 2 packages put you at 45 points. Add in the powder sugar, butter, and vanilla and you are at something close to 90 points (this is the whole frosting - not the frosting divided into servings. What I learned making my pumpkin cheesecake earlier this year is that while fat free cream cheese may be much better for you, it tastes bitter compared to regular cream cheese and doesn't necessarily have the same consistency in the end. So I used a combination of fat free cream cheese and neufchatel cheese. Neufchatel is a soft cheese that is very cream cheese like (you even find it in that section of the grocery store) but it is lower in fat than regular cream cheese and is creamier than fat free cream cheese. It's a happy medium. So here is my recipie.
Emily's totally AWESOME cream cheese frosting
1 8oz. package of fat free cream cheese (room temp)
1 8oz. package of Neufchatel cheese (room temp)
1/2 cup of butter (softened, but not melty)
2 cups powder sugar
1 tsp vanilla
Using and electric mixer, cream together the FF Cream Cheese, Neufchatel Cheese, and butter. Once mixed together, mix in powder sugar in about about 1/2 cups increments. Mix until frosting smooth but not bubbly. Add in vanilla and mix for another 30 seconds. If you want a different flavor of frosting - you can add in a different extract in substitute for vanilla. If you want chocolate frosting - you can add in 1/2 cup cocoa (I reccommend Hershey's special dark cocoa - it's totally sinful).
When I made this recipie, I was liberally able to frost 23 regular sized cupcakes and still had over a cup of frosting left. The total points for the icing is about 64 points, meaning that point for a serving (based on 24 cupcakes) is about 3.
Enjoy.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
They're EVERYWHERE
So last week I went to go visit my father in Mexico. Mexico City to be exact. And it was really nice to hear my dad say when he first saw me, you are looking pretty good - keep up the good work. Usually I cry at least once with my dad because he has to say something about my weight and how I need to loose it, but this time it was a simple recognition of what I had done. No harping on the issue (which always makes me want to stress eat).
Now for the past couple of weeks I was on a losing (weight) streak, but I thought that this trip combined with the fact that I badly hurt the ligaments in my foot the week before would have done me in, but no. I lost 5 pounds since my last WW weigh in and 1.2 pounds since my work weight club weigh in. Woo Hoo! I guess it didn't really hurt that Mexico has Crazy Good fruits and vegetables that I couldn't get enough of. Everymorning we had like fresh Papaya and mango and oranges for breakfast - and you can guarantee that you will have lots of fresh salsas and vegetables during rest of the day. I tried Nopal (aka cactus) at one meal and found that it was delicious - kinda like a tangy green bean. I also had an authentic mole (a chocolate based barbecue sauce) which is so delicious but so filling that you are filled for like the whole day.
Plus on top of everything else - we walked a lot. I'm guessing that we walked at least 2 miles everyday doing sight seeing. Plus we walked in my dad's neighborhood a lot if we needed to go run a small errand.
But one of the things that really made me laugh was when I found a Weight Watcher's in Mexico. We were driving to my dad's zen center when I saw it. I actually made my dad stop and let me take a picture of it. As soon as I saw it my leader's story about how she found a WW on the vegas strip came to mind and I became convinced that you can go anywhere and find a WW. Anyways, I didn't go in (I left my card at home - and they only spoke Spanish) but whenever we passed it - it helped me to remember all that I have worked for this year and helped me stay strong when temptation hit me.
Now for the past couple of weeks I was on a losing (weight) streak, but I thought that this trip combined with the fact that I badly hurt the ligaments in my foot the week before would have done me in, but no. I lost 5 pounds since my last WW weigh in and 1.2 pounds since my work weight club weigh in. Woo Hoo! I guess it didn't really hurt that Mexico has Crazy Good fruits and vegetables that I couldn't get enough of. Everymorning we had like fresh Papaya and mango and oranges for breakfast - and you can guarantee that you will have lots of fresh salsas and vegetables during rest of the day. I tried Nopal (aka cactus) at one meal and found that it was delicious - kinda like a tangy green bean. I also had an authentic mole (a chocolate based barbecue sauce) which is so delicious but so filling that you are filled for like the whole day.
Plus on top of everything else - we walked a lot. I'm guessing that we walked at least 2 miles everyday doing sight seeing. Plus we walked in my dad's neighborhood a lot if we needed to go run a small errand.
But one of the things that really made me laugh was when I found a Weight Watcher's in Mexico. We were driving to my dad's zen center when I saw it. I actually made my dad stop and let me take a picture of it. As soon as I saw it my leader's story about how she found a WW on the vegas strip came to mind and I became convinced that you can go anywhere and find a WW. Anyways, I didn't go in (I left my card at home - and they only spoke Spanish) but whenever we passed it - it helped me to remember all that I have worked for this year and helped me stay strong when temptation hit me.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Trying to Reduce my Fat Footprint
Earlier this week I was reading this article about how Tropicana has figured out that its plain ol' orange juice has a carbon footprint of 3 plus pounds of carbon produced for every 1/2 gallon of orange juice. It has something to do with fertilizer. It went on to say that in the near future, companies may start to actually print a product's carbon foot print on its label.
So this Sunday is Book Club and for every meeting we have to bring in something seriously yummy to share with the group. Since I now have a crazy obsession with cupcakes - which I should seriously not be having, I have to find ways to reduce what I am now calling my Fat Footprint. I guess its kinda making sure that I track the point from eating the cupcakes and then using my activity points to offset them. But it's a little more than that. For example, this afternoon I rode my bike to the bookstore just so I could buy red food coloring and some cream cheese for the icing. I'm also going to try to reduce the fat by using lower fat products. Like I am going to try to make butter milk using soy milk and vinegar. I probably should have bought a red velvet cake mix just in case this cupcakes suck, but I am going to trust that they won't and that everybody will love them. So I figure the fat footprint for the cupcake will be the points for the recipie minus the points I spent biking and then divided by how many cupcakes I make. I guess I could also try to figure out how many points I save by mixing it all by hand too.
So that is my plan for reducing the fat footprint for my cupcakes. I just hope they work out.
So this Sunday is Book Club and for every meeting we have to bring in something seriously yummy to share with the group. Since I now have a crazy obsession with cupcakes - which I should seriously not be having, I have to find ways to reduce what I am now calling my Fat Footprint. I guess its kinda making sure that I track the point from eating the cupcakes and then using my activity points to offset them. But it's a little more than that. For example, this afternoon I rode my bike to the bookstore just so I could buy red food coloring and some cream cheese for the icing. I'm also going to try to reduce the fat by using lower fat products. Like I am going to try to make butter milk using soy milk and vinegar. I probably should have bought a red velvet cake mix just in case this cupcakes suck, but I am going to trust that they won't and that everybody will love them. So I figure the fat footprint for the cupcake will be the points for the recipie minus the points I spent biking and then divided by how many cupcakes I make. I guess I could also try to figure out how many points I save by mixing it all by hand too.
So that is my plan for reducing the fat footprint for my cupcakes. I just hope they work out.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Say it Ain't So
My name is Emily and I have a problem. I love Cheese. See, I even capitalize the word "Cheese" because I love it so much.
I've had this love affair with Cheese for a long time. But I've realized that if I am ever going to lose this weight - I am going to have to break it off with Cheese, or at least say, "let's just be friends" and then not see it for a long time. And this is a hard thing to do. Somehow in my head, I've basically started using Cheese as a freakin' condiment. You know how like some people put ketchup on everything - I try to put Cheese on everything. Well, maybe not everything, but on a whole lot of stuff. There are days that I realize I have had Cheese at every meal. But no more. I can't live like that anymore.
So I'm starting an experiment - I am going to limit myself to one meal with Cheese per day. And I planned out my menu for the week, and I made sure that it wasn't a cheese love fest. And when I go grocery shopping tonight - I am not buying cheese of any form. So who's with me?!
I've had this love affair with Cheese for a long time. But I've realized that if I am ever going to lose this weight - I am going to have to break it off with Cheese, or at least say, "let's just be friends" and then not see it for a long time. And this is a hard thing to do. Somehow in my head, I've basically started using Cheese as a freakin' condiment. You know how like some people put ketchup on everything - I try to put Cheese on everything. Well, maybe not everything, but on a whole lot of stuff. There are days that I realize I have had Cheese at every meal. But no more. I can't live like that anymore.
So I'm starting an experiment - I am going to limit myself to one meal with Cheese per day. And I planned out my menu for the week, and I made sure that it wasn't a cheese love fest. And when I go grocery shopping tonight - I am not buying cheese of any form. So who's with me?!
Thursday, January 8, 2009
It's a new year
I just viewed my last entry and I have to say that it's been a while since I posted.
November and December were really tough. The closer I got to Christmas, the edgier I got - mostly because Christmas is no longer just Christmas. Christmas is now also the time when Chris died. All I knew is that I wanted to power through those months and just get my work done, get through the one-year mark, and get to my vacation. My energy was being stretched and so I told myself that I would concentrate on really keeping care of my mental health during that time and not worry so much about the physical. I didn't track what I was eating, I didn't pay attention to my water usage, I ate whatever I want and whenever I wanted, and I didn't really sleep well. My goal for the holidays - to start the year still under the 300 mark.
And I'm happy to say that I made it. JUST BARELY. The last time I weighed in December I was at 298.6. Yesterday I was at 298.4. So I maintained and below the 300 mark. I achieved my goal.
Of course this is about 12 pounds more than I was at my lowest. And I notice the differences. I don't breathe as easily, my newest clothes feel tighter, and I just feel kinda dumpy. But I am still 12 pounds less than I was at the beginning of last year. Of course then I can look at my friends like Susan who has kicked ass and managed to lose a lot more than 12 and I realize that I can totally do better than what I did.
So I am starting off again this year. I am dedicating myself to tracking what I eat and how I feel before eating. And to move more. (Yeah yeah - I know I'm basically reciting the WW program - what can I say - I'm totally drunk on their low-fat kool-ade)
Oh and I will blog more.
November and December were really tough. The closer I got to Christmas, the edgier I got - mostly because Christmas is no longer just Christmas. Christmas is now also the time when Chris died. All I knew is that I wanted to power through those months and just get my work done, get through the one-year mark, and get to my vacation. My energy was being stretched and so I told myself that I would concentrate on really keeping care of my mental health during that time and not worry so much about the physical. I didn't track what I was eating, I didn't pay attention to my water usage, I ate whatever I want and whenever I wanted, and I didn't really sleep well. My goal for the holidays - to start the year still under the 300 mark.
And I'm happy to say that I made it. JUST BARELY. The last time I weighed in December I was at 298.6. Yesterday I was at 298.4. So I maintained and below the 300 mark. I achieved my goal.
Of course this is about 12 pounds more than I was at my lowest. And I notice the differences. I don't breathe as easily, my newest clothes feel tighter, and I just feel kinda dumpy. But I am still 12 pounds less than I was at the beginning of last year. Of course then I can look at my friends like Susan who has kicked ass and managed to lose a lot more than 12 and I realize that I can totally do better than what I did.
So I am starting off again this year. I am dedicating myself to tracking what I eat and how I feel before eating. And to move more. (Yeah yeah - I know I'm basically reciting the WW program - what can I say - I'm totally drunk on their low-fat kool-ade)
Oh and I will blog more.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Main Ingredient: water
So yesterday I weighed in at WW for the first time in three weeks. The previous two weeks I had been suffering from virus/fevers. Anyways - I was hoping that I would be at that 288 mark again. Oh how wrong I was.
I had gained 2.8 pounds so now I am back above 290. I was really hoping not to go there, especially since on Tuesday when I weighed in for our Biggest Loser club at work I had weighed in at 287.2. Gaaaack!
Then I remembered. Through my newest favorite social networking site (www.fatsecret.com) I had joined a challenge where I have to drink 64 oz. of water a day. Now this shouldn't be a problem if I had been a perfect Weight Watcher - which my daily water allowance has been one of the WW things that I have not been following. So I am thinking that I am currently suffering from some serious water retention considering that I am not trying to drink at least a liter and a half of water while at work. Hopefully once I get back to my water equilibrium I will see that I am not actually above that 290 mark.
Anyways - this weekend I will be venturing to the Blue Ridge Mountains near Roanoke to go help do repairs at Camp Virginia Jaycee (and to help my friend Laura take care of her daughter while she has to do official Jaycee stuff). So hopefully I can work in some major exercising. I'm actually considering waking up early and doing stuff like walking around the camp before everybody else is up. Today I have done about 2 miles of walking (not all at once). Of course this is negated by the fact that I went to Good Stuff Eatery (the restaurant from Spike of Top Chef fame) for lunch and had a patty melt, some yummy fries with rosemary and thyme, and half of a toasted Marshmallow milkshake. A year ago I would have ordered my own order of fries and my own milkshake but today when we went into order (I went with three work colleagues) it felt natural to just have ONE order of fries for the table and split a milkshake (OMG it was sooooo good). Oh - and I am totally keeping the water bottle I got there. They have custom labels for the water - and the bottle I grabbed had the label "Main Ingredient: Water (What else were you expecting?)" Love it!!!!
I had gained 2.8 pounds so now I am back above 290. I was really hoping not to go there, especially since on Tuesday when I weighed in for our Biggest Loser club at work I had weighed in at 287.2. Gaaaack!
Then I remembered. Through my newest favorite social networking site (www.fatsecret.com) I had joined a challenge where I have to drink 64 oz. of water a day. Now this shouldn't be a problem if I had been a perfect Weight Watcher - which my daily water allowance has been one of the WW things that I have not been following. So I am thinking that I am currently suffering from some serious water retention considering that I am not trying to drink at least a liter and a half of water while at work. Hopefully once I get back to my water equilibrium I will see that I am not actually above that 290 mark.
Anyways - this weekend I will be venturing to the Blue Ridge Mountains near Roanoke to go help do repairs at Camp Virginia Jaycee (and to help my friend Laura take care of her daughter while she has to do official Jaycee stuff). So hopefully I can work in some major exercising. I'm actually considering waking up early and doing stuff like walking around the camp before everybody else is up. Today I have done about 2 miles of walking (not all at once). Of course this is negated by the fact that I went to Good Stuff Eatery (the restaurant from Spike of Top Chef fame) for lunch and had a patty melt, some yummy fries with rosemary and thyme, and half of a toasted Marshmallow milkshake. A year ago I would have ordered my own order of fries and my own milkshake but today when we went into order (I went with three work colleagues) it felt natural to just have ONE order of fries for the table and split a milkshake (OMG it was sooooo good). Oh - and I am totally keeping the water bottle I got there. They have custom labels for the water - and the bottle I grabbed had the label "Main Ingredient: Water (What else were you expecting?)" Love it!!!!
Monday, October 20, 2008
Just...
So last time I posted I was 288 pounds and yo-yoing around there and on anti-depressants. Well things have changed.
Well - the weight hasn't really. I'm still hovering around 288. I don't think I've gone back into the 290's, but I haven't been weighed in two weeks because I've had the flu the past two weeks on my weigh in day. Like having a fever over 100 degrees kind of flu. I'm sure my fellow WW members will appreciate knowing that I chose to stay home instead of polluting the air at the meeting.
I ended winning our biggest loser club at work. But I don't actually win anything because since the administration of the club kinda disappeared before the end - we didn't really finish and so we all kinda agreed that we take the money and buy a good scale for the office so that we can all weigh in at the same time and on the same scale. No more wonky nurses office scale. Anyways - our new biggest loser club is starting tomorrow, so it's time to get back into the I can do this mind frame because if I can win once - I can certainly win again. Time to start taking this weight back off again.
I'm off the anti-depressants. This has been a mixed bag. I do think the drugs were doing something to me because I have had more moments of crying and noticeable depression to me. But I'm beginning to feel in touch with my body once again. Like yesterday - for the first time in months I cleaned my apartment for more that 3 hours. Scary that my apartment needs that much cleaning (well it actually needs a lot more than that before anyone could call it liveable again). But it was the first time I felt like I could make a dent. Now I have to admit that when I do feel low - I feel really low, but at the same time I like the fact that I know that all my feelings are coming from me and not some chemical that I've put in my body.
And last night - for the first time since Chris' funeral - I slept in my bed. I've been sleeping on the futon in my living room for awhile - so it was pretty big thing to be sleeping in my bed. It does feel weird to be sleeping in a bed without Chris by my side, but it also made my back feel a lot better.
So today I am taking a step to getting back to a healthier me and everyday I just need to take a step because eventually all these steps will add up to a mile.
Well - the weight hasn't really. I'm still hovering around 288. I don't think I've gone back into the 290's, but I haven't been weighed in two weeks because I've had the flu the past two weeks on my weigh in day. Like having a fever over 100 degrees kind of flu. I'm sure my fellow WW members will appreciate knowing that I chose to stay home instead of polluting the air at the meeting.
I ended winning our biggest loser club at work. But I don't actually win anything because since the administration of the club kinda disappeared before the end - we didn't really finish and so we all kinda agreed that we take the money and buy a good scale for the office so that we can all weigh in at the same time and on the same scale. No more wonky nurses office scale. Anyways - our new biggest loser club is starting tomorrow, so it's time to get back into the I can do this mind frame because if I can win once - I can certainly win again. Time to start taking this weight back off again.
I'm off the anti-depressants. This has been a mixed bag. I do think the drugs were doing something to me because I have had more moments of crying and noticeable depression to me. But I'm beginning to feel in touch with my body once again. Like yesterday - for the first time in months I cleaned my apartment for more that 3 hours. Scary that my apartment needs that much cleaning (well it actually needs a lot more than that before anyone could call it liveable again). But it was the first time I felt like I could make a dent. Now I have to admit that when I do feel low - I feel really low, but at the same time I like the fact that I know that all my feelings are coming from me and not some chemical that I've put in my body.
And last night - for the first time since Chris' funeral - I slept in my bed. I've been sleeping on the futon in my living room for awhile - so it was pretty big thing to be sleeping in my bed. It does feel weird to be sleeping in a bed without Chris by my side, but it also made my back feel a lot better.
So today I am taking a step to getting back to a healthier me and everyday I just need to take a step because eventually all these steps will add up to a mile.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
The Flirting Continues
Ok - I gained a pound this week.
I need to tell myself - it's not a big deal. Weight can fluctuate between 1-2 pounds a day - so I'm good.
Inside I am really going. "OMG - I'm gaining my weight back. Oh the humanity."
But this week we talked about Managing our thoughts. So I will go back to thinking that it's ok because weight fluctuates and I still haven't gone above the 280's.
After weigh in my friends and I went to our favorite sushi place, which can be dangerous because it is soo yum. but oh so dangerous. or as one girl at ww put it last night - "seems like a good idea". anyways- then we had the sushi and I went way over the daily points. And even though I did an hour of wii fit afterwards - it still didn't get rid of all those extra points i used. But I guess that is why we have the weekly allowance.
But I am managing my thoughts and today is a new day with no mistakes in it.
I need to tell myself - it's not a big deal. Weight can fluctuate between 1-2 pounds a day - so I'm good.
Inside I am really going. "OMG - I'm gaining my weight back. Oh the humanity."
But this week we talked about Managing our thoughts. So I will go back to thinking that it's ok because weight fluctuates and I still haven't gone above the 280's.
After weigh in my friends and I went to our favorite sushi place, which can be dangerous because it is soo yum. but oh so dangerous. or as one girl at ww put it last night - "seems like a good idea". anyways- then we had the sushi and I went way over the daily points. And even though I did an hour of wii fit afterwards - it still didn't get rid of all those extra points i used. But I guess that is why we have the weekly allowance.
But I am managing my thoughts and today is a new day with no mistakes in it.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
I'm still trucking on
I knew it had been too long since my last post when my friend Susan said she never hears about how I am doing on Weight Watchers any more. That made me look back at this blog - and I realized that OMG - I haven't posted anything since June.
Here is an update. I have been flirting with the same 5 pounds for over two months now. In June I started taking anti-depressants and since then my body has been kinda messed up. The first round gave me constant headaches. The second round made me totally sleepless and lethargic. I am on my third different medication now and although it is not as bad as the second one - I don't really feel like the benefits of taking it outweigh the negative. Having a messed up bio rhythm has thrown me off of the Weight Watcher's wagon. I've gone back to some of my bad eating habits and not exercising like I should. I even started missing some of my WW meetings (for the first time in 6 months) Plus some anti-depressants do have side effects of gaining weight. I guess I should be very glad that I didn't gain it all back.
On top of the anti-depressants, I've been having (and men - turn away if you don't want to read this) regulary monthlys. 9months in a row. I can't even tell you the last time I had 3 of these in a row - not to mention 9. My doctor friends tell me this is a very good thing medically (and I know they totally right), but there are days when I miss the not feeling bloated and icky once a month. On my weight chart, I've been noticing that there is always one monthly weight gain spike - and it's discouraging. I just have to tell my mind that it's a good spike.
Anyways - so I've been feeling bad over the fact that I have been hovering around the 20-25 pound weight loss mark. I was really discouraged - so I stopped doing the things that I should - like keeping track of what I eat and making sure I get in 40 oz. of water. So at the beginning of September I told myself that I needed this to be fun again. So I splurged. I bought myself a Wii and a Wii Fit. There were so many reasons why I shouldn't have done it, but I needed to do something to make me want to get back on track. I've had the Wii for a week now - and I've played every night at least 30 minutes. It's really excellent excerise for the arms. Yesterday the Wii Fit finally arrived, so I played on that for another 30 minutes. It was a lot of fun. Anyways - I'm really psyched that I will be able to track my progress on it. Like the folks on the Biggest Loser - my physical age is way older than my chronological age - so I have a lot of work to do. (Speaking of the Biggest Loser - how gross was it to see how fat builds around your organs. Seriously. If I wasn't already try to lose weight - that would definitely inspire me)
So that is where things are. As of my last week weigh in I was 288.2 pounds. We'll see how I do tonight. Send me skinny vibes.
And I promise that I will post again soon.
Here is an update. I have been flirting with the same 5 pounds for over two months now. In June I started taking anti-depressants and since then my body has been kinda messed up. The first round gave me constant headaches. The second round made me totally sleepless and lethargic. I am on my third different medication now and although it is not as bad as the second one - I don't really feel like the benefits of taking it outweigh the negative. Having a messed up bio rhythm has thrown me off of the Weight Watcher's wagon. I've gone back to some of my bad eating habits and not exercising like I should. I even started missing some of my WW meetings (for the first time in 6 months) Plus some anti-depressants do have side effects of gaining weight. I guess I should be very glad that I didn't gain it all back.
On top of the anti-depressants, I've been having (and men - turn away if you don't want to read this) regulary monthlys. 9months in a row. I can't even tell you the last time I had 3 of these in a row - not to mention 9. My doctor friends tell me this is a very good thing medically (and I know they totally right), but there are days when I miss the not feeling bloated and icky once a month. On my weight chart, I've been noticing that there is always one monthly weight gain spike - and it's discouraging. I just have to tell my mind that it's a good spike.
Anyways - so I've been feeling bad over the fact that I have been hovering around the 20-25 pound weight loss mark. I was really discouraged - so I stopped doing the things that I should - like keeping track of what I eat and making sure I get in 40 oz. of water. So at the beginning of September I told myself that I needed this to be fun again. So I splurged. I bought myself a Wii and a Wii Fit. There were so many reasons why I shouldn't have done it, but I needed to do something to make me want to get back on track. I've had the Wii for a week now - and I've played every night at least 30 minutes. It's really excellent excerise for the arms. Yesterday the Wii Fit finally arrived, so I played on that for another 30 minutes. It was a lot of fun. Anyways - I'm really psyched that I will be able to track my progress on it. Like the folks on the Biggest Loser - my physical age is way older than my chronological age - so I have a lot of work to do. (Speaking of the Biggest Loser - how gross was it to see how fat builds around your organs. Seriously. If I wasn't already try to lose weight - that would definitely inspire me)
So that is where things are. As of my last week weigh in I was 288.2 pounds. We'll see how I do tonight. Send me skinny vibes.
And I promise that I will post again soon.
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